29 Weeks!!
Well I haven't really grown a lot since last week, not enough to really tell anyway. I am still happy when I hear people say that I don't even look big enough to be carrying twins. It gives me a little boost to the ol' self-esteem.
I am not going to do the usual blog that I have been doing because I feel like being a little crazy today. So here is the weekly run down:
Sunday Peder and I went on a little adventure to Montpelier, ID. Why Montpelier you ask? Well, in 1917 my grandmother was born and raised in that small little town that is only an hour and a half away from my house. She grew- up there with her brothers and sisters, and both her parents were buried there. In fact, her home is still standing and being lived in today! I wanted to see this piece of history so we went on a drive. A beautiful drive through the mountains with our little pups. I wasn't 100% sure what house was hers, but we went down her street and it had to be one of the houses that we saw, so I am saying I saw her house. Next on the list was to find Grandpa Fredrick's and Grandam Minnie's grave site.
After about an hour of walking around the cemetery I finally found it!! I had no idea that my great-grandma and I had the same birthday! That was awesome to see! I wish I could have had the privilege of knowing those two great people who joined the church in Germany and left everything they knew so they could come to America. I owe them so much.
Our happy faces after we finally found the grave site!
One of the most beautiful graves I have ever seen. It was so tender.... It reads "Baby, Beautiful lovely, He was but given, A Fair bud to earth, To bloom in heaven"
Monday brought more writing of my thesis followed by Tuesday which brought presents for the babies!!!
Thank you to Peder's Aunt and Uncle Pedersen for the great gifts! I am so excited for the boys to wear them! We also got another great gift in the mail from my mission president and his beautiful wife. We are so blessed.
Wednesday also brought deadlines for my thesis...... I am at the brink of exploding. I am having a hard time focusing on writing, and being tired all the time doesn't help. I can't wait to be done with this thesis thing. I will be defending the week of March 23rd so wish me luck!
Short story, a few months ago Peder and I were looking for carseats on-line. We went to KSL (of course) to see what deals we could get. We found two carseats, the color and style we wanted! Each at a great price and not to far from us. One was in Ogden and one in Brigham City. Well, the women that was selling the one in Brigham told me, upon texting her, that she worked in Logan and could bring the carseat with her and I could pick it up at her office. After a few text of excitement that she still had the carseat and it was going to be easy to retrieve, I found out that she was also pregnant with twin boys! What a small world. When I met her I at once felt a connection. She was such a sweet women and I could tell that she was going to be an amazing mom. We had a chance to talk and I voiced some of the concerns I had been having at the time. Just talking to her and hearing that we shared similar fears calmed my heart, as well as the advice she gave me. I felt a connection of sisterhood with her. Knowing I was not alone brought peace.
Well, this beautiful women gave birth to two beautiful identical twin boys just days ago. They were so small and fragile, but from her pictures I could see the joy she felt holding those two little boys in her arms. My heart jumped for joy thinking that in a few months I would be privileged enough to share the same joy.
However, today my heart breaks for this beautiful daughter of God. My kindred sister and friend. One of her sweet angels has left this earth for the time being. He was so precious that all he needed was to receive an earthly body and then allowed once again to return to the arm's of God. He was able to bless his family with his presence for 12 glories days and now he is safely waiting in heaven for his dear family.
In Portuguese, they don't say that a women has given birth, they say that she has given light. This is because they see birth as bringing a new light to the world in the form of a sweet child. Every second that a child is here it brings more light to those that love it and cherish it. We may think that the light is gone when the body dies, yes the source of the light is gone, but the light that was radiated onto us stays with us, in us. So the light is never really gone because it has become a part of us, of who we are. It is easy to be enveloped in sorrow, to allow ourselves to regret or wonder what if. For a time it is ok to be sorrowful, but there is a way to find balm to our pain and that comes from our Savior. "...He has borne our grief, and carried our sorrows... that his bowels may be filed with mercy... that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people... (Mosiah 14:4 and Alma 7:12)."
The Atonement was not just for sin. Christ felt all the emotional, physical, spiritual, and mental pain we have, are, and will feel. It is only in this knowledge that I have found hope, peace, love, and the strength to go one. It is never easy seeing someone we love leave us before their time, but it is not for us to ask why, it is for us to be glad that we had the privilege to have the sacred, special being with us. I know that God lives and loves us. I know His plan is perfect and eternal. I know that everything happens for a reason, and many times we don't understand the reason. However, God is at the helm and He will never lead us astray. I am so blessed to know these truths and I am so blessed that God has surrounded me with amazing examples of strength that build me and make me a better person.
Dear friend, you are a choice individual. You never need to wonder why because you are enough. You are amazing, beautiful, special, and sacred. You have blessed more lives than you will ever know and you will continue to do so, I know because you have blessed mine. Thank you!
